Saturday 14 September 2013

Our visit to the urologist

We went to the urologist the last week of August. He went over the sperm analysis results with us. Count was pretty high, motility was at the low end of normal, and morphology was only 3%. This means 98% of his sperm are abnormal. The urologist did an exam and everything checked out okay. Then he is sending him for another analysis and hormone testing. I think he'll get that done this week. The urologist was really hopeful, especially when we told him we were pregnant before. He said he thought we would be fine. Anyways, while I was leaving the appointment, I look down at my phone and my sister had her baby! While we were learning we had fertility issues, she was having her baby. What are the odds?!? Well, I ran to the store and picked up a baby boy outfit and then to Babies R' Us to get her a c-section wrap. Then I headed up to the hospital. I cried most of the way there. It was a mix of happy tears and nervousness. God granted me such a peace that day. I felt completely happy and it was like all my troubles washed away. I am so grateful for that. I spent the day hanging out with my mom and my sister's others kids. So for a few weeks, I felt happy. Then on Wednesday, after I came home from work,  I just got in bed and cried and cried. I don't know what caused it. Really, now I think it may have been seeing our stockings in the back closet and thinking we should be hanging up 3 stockings this year. The next day, my best friend called and told me she was pregnant. She stopped birth control only serveral weeks prior. She wasn't sure she was ready. She thought it would take a while. And she called to tell me the news and asked when she should expect to feel excited. I'm not sure that little sting I feel when friends tell me their news will ever go away. I think I'll always have that little ache in my heart that reminds me of us sharing our good news only to have it taken away.

5 comments:

  1. Hi there! Still thinking about you and sending you uplifting thoughts. I'm glad that seeing your sister's little one wasn't quite as hard as you expected it to be. Did the urologist talk about IUI?

    I'm not sure if you ever get my comments, since I haven't heard back at all. :: shrugs :: But I'm starting this preconception journey. Had my hormones tested last Friday, checking my Fallopian tubes this Friday and getting a voucher for sperm testing on Saturday.

    I think it's wonderful that you are opening people's eyes to how difficult this journey can become- and that people should look into preconception.

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    1. Deanna, Thank you! He didn't talk about IUI yet. He just wanted to do more tests. : / Wow! You are doing all the testing before TTC for preconception? You're on the ball!

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    2. oh and also, I'm sorry if I haven't replied to your comments. I'm really bad about reading my comments, but I think I replied to most of them. I appreciate you thinking of me and sending me happy thoughts! : )

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  2. Yup, I started going to a chiropractor and maxed out my deductible, so thought I would hit up a reproductive endocrinologist before even TTC. I had an ovarian tumor removed three years ago and my hormones were pretty imbalanced, so I'm a bit nervous, but more then anything...it gave me something to do while waiting to TTC. I found your blog while googling "preconception blog"- it's one of the first ones that came up. I've thought of starting a blog, but right now I just started a facebook album- https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10100294242387990.1073741831.29901698&type=1&l=e14160ac2a
    It's open to the public, because I think it's an important topic.

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    1. That's awesome. When will you start TTC? I wish you all the luck ; )

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