Monday 29 October 2012

an unwanted change of plans.

I'm so upset. Beyond upset. I don't even know what to write. Last week, I got my period at around lunch time. I was sad that I wasn't pregnant and really disappointed. Right after, when I went to get my purse, I saw a text from my husband saying his company was sold and there was a 60% chance of him being laid off. I had parent conferences and didn't get home until around 8 that night. He explained to me that he will know for sure by february if he's laid off or not.  I know that being laid off isn't the end of the world. We have enough savings to get by for a long time and he would get a few months pay if he was laid off. He told me the only problem is starting a family. He doesn't feel comfortable with ttc if he is laid off work. I understand his point of view, but I'm so upset. I haven't felt like this before. I'm not used to not being in control. Not being able to plan things out.

hopefully he will know something before february. I can't stand the thought of maybe having to wait 4 months to even try. At that point, it would be early spring. Being a teacher, getting pregnant from march to july isn't the best time. So, we may end up having to wait until next summer. Next summer?!?!  Then what if it takes a year to get pregnant. I'm going to go crazy!!!

I'm trying to remember a saying I saw on pinterest: worry about it or pray about it, but don't do both. I'm praying hard. I'm trying not to worry. I know something good will come of this.

8 comments:

  1. I am impressed by the quality of information on this website. There are a lot of good resources here. I am sure I will visit this blog again soon.
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    1. thank you so much for your kind comment! I'm glad I could be of some help.

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  2. There's no doubt in my mind something good will come from this. In the mean time, keep the faith. A God who sees the whooooole picture and knows the plans He has for you is totally worth trusting. Thanks for sharing your heart and the update so I'll know how to pray. :) ((HUGS)) ~Cindi

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    1. Thank you for your sweet support and praying. I know it will all work out one day : )

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  3. I just stumbled across your blog and in reading your post, I thought I would comment. These sorts of things have a way of working themselves out. All I can say is I have been in a similar position not so long ago and the story had a very happy ending. My husband got out of the Marine Corps in early 2011 right after returning from a deployment in late 2010. We thought it would be a great time to TTC. I got pregnant within 6 weeks and then miscarried at 12 weeks. In the meantime, my husband was struggling to find a job in a difficult economy. He was reluctant to try again because he had yet to secure stable work. My company was getting sold off, so I no longer had stable work. But all I could think about was getting pregnant again because of the miscarriage. In spite of everything, we went for it and figured we had 9 months to prepare if we did end up pregnant. We wound up pregnant. I was faced with searching for a new job because a layoff was imminent. My husband was still looking for a secure job. Long story short, I found a job at 7 weeks pregnant. My husband secured a stable job in December 2011, and we were blessed with the arrival of our amazing baby girl in Feb2012. I look back on that time and remember how frantic I was and I felt like having a baby was so far in future and it was taking too long/was never going to happen. It was a little overwhelming and sad. It seems like it at the time, but everything usually works out for the best with a little patience.

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    1. I'm glad to read this story and how it all turned out so well. Thank you for sharing ; )

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  4. my goodness, I am really sorry about this turn of events. I know how much it blows when you get your period when you are trying so hard to get pregnant, but worry about it doesnt help. In fact it hinders your ability so just keep praying and dont worry! You will get pregnant when the time is right.

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    1. it does totally blow. thanks for reading and for your sweet comment! hopefully the right time will be soon ; )

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