Our second IUI

So glad it's over. I was tired of blood draws and shots. It went okay, I guess. Not great. My husband gave his sample, we left for a really awkward breakfast. He said he didn't think it went well. I thought it was him just being insecure, but he wouldn't tell me what was wrong. He was in the worst mood. We got back to the clinic and the nurse said there wasn't a whole lot of sperm and asked if he would give another sample. Oh my gosh! Are you kidding me?!? I couldn't believe it. My husband left again and,  I sat there trying not to cry and the nurse came back and said there were sperm... they just wanted more. I knew my husband was probably so embarrased and angry. He came back out again and didn't say much. The nurse called us back and said when they put the two samples together, it looked "good." I'm hoping she wasn't just being nice and was telling the truth. But it can't be good if he had to it again. The head nurse did my IUI. She also said the sample looked good. I asked for the count, but she said they don't do a count. This made me really frustrated.... I've never heard of that before. The first thing I asked when the nurse came in for the procedure was "are you going to use the tennaculum?" She said no! Which was a big relief. I mostly just felt uncomfortable and had cramping. Afterwards, I went home to rest. I go tomorrow for an extra dose of hcg and I start progesterone tomorrow as well. I will be able to test July 8th. Our 5th wedding anniversary is the 11th. Praying for good news, but I'm not very hopeful. I think we will probably do 1 or 2 more IUI's before we move on to IVF. : / Yikes! Just saying that makes my stomach hurt.

IUI #2 is tomorrow!

Well, tomorrow is the big day. I have two follicles on the left that are mature and nothing on the right : ( a little disappointed with that. On clomid, I always had two follicles. I figured on gonal f I would have more. But two is still good, I guess.

The nurse asked me if I was excited. I told her not really... I said I try not to think about it and don't want to get my hopes up. Last time we did an iui with clomid I was really excited. This time I'm not. I think it's because I've had my hopes dashed so many times now. I'm also really scared of that tenneculum (sp?) thing. Ouch!! I hope they don't have to use that tomorrow. If my cervix isn't open, they will need to pinch my cervix, which causes the uterus to contract and it hurts like a mother!!! I'm also worried about my husband's levels. It will only be a day and a half of abstinance which isn't very good at all. But we followed the doctor's orders.

I'm planning on resting all day tomorrow after, so I'll update and let you know how it goes. Prayers are greatly appreciated! <3

Shots!!

Last week, a big box came that said refrigerate immediately! I opened it up and felt really intimidated. There was a sharps container and needles and meds, oh my! The gonal f comes in a preloaded pen, like an epi pen, so all you have to do it twist it to the right dose and put a needle on the end. It is really easy to administer. I was at my parents' house this weekend when I needed to take the first injection. My younger sister was there and said she would help me because my husband didn't come. My sister use to give herself shots in her stomach for some weird diet, so I felt a little better about it. She kept saying, "I'm a nurse, I'm just not registered." It was cracking me up! Anyways, I did freak out a little bit looking at that needle, so I told her to do it fast. I didn't feel it at all!! So then the next night, I was back home and told my husband what to do. For some reason, I freaked out again with him holding that needle pointing at me. So I did it myself while he counted. Whew! I'm so glad I can give them on my own! I feel really proud of myself! It helps that it doesn't hurt. So bring it on infertility!!! you don't scare me.

Tomorrow is my appointment to count the follies and see how many there are. Please pray there aren't too many! We will have to cancel the whole things if there are too many : /

Injections...

My test was negative yesterday. I already knew it would be, and I'm getting kinda used to seeing the negatives every month. My husband was really bummed though. He said he felt really sad all day.

I called my doctor after the test and told him that we wanted to move forward with injections and iui. So, today's appointment was a sonogram to check lining and cysts. Everything was normal. I had blood work (also normal) and got some tutorials on the gonal-f. I'll be giving shots in my stomach every day for 5 days I think. I'm supposed to call on day 1 and we'll go from there.

The injections cost 800 dollars yall! I couldn't believe that. BUT my insurance is going to cover them so it will only be 80! Praise God. I'll let you guys know how it goes : )