I'm going crazy.

I've done so good with this two week wait thing. Until today.... omg! I'm going nuts! The past few days are dragging by... I just want to know already!!!!! Every little cramp makes me thing I'm pregnant. Then, when I feel nothing for several hours and start to think I'm not, then here come the cramps again. 

Today is 7 dpo (7 days past ovulation). I still haven't decided when I'll test. I was going to on Saturday or Sunday (10 dpo) but we are going to the in-laws for the night. I start back to work on Monday. 

 This is harder than I thought. I'm praying for patience yall.

The 2 week wait...

Our first month of baby making is well underway! My last post, I was frustrated with my really late period and mad because it made our planned baby making trip (which should have been around ovulation time) not a baby making trip after all. Just a relax by the pool trip. Which now, I'm thinking is even better. We had such a fun time, there was no stress or worry about drinking. I had a few drinks every day and didn't feel bad about it.

We got back from our trip on a Sunday and for the past week, have had lots of fun! ; ) (Just for my record: days 11, 14, 16, 17, 18)  I got a positive OPK on Wednesday afternoon (day 16) So, I'm hoping we were able to time things pretty well. My OPK's turn positive 12-36 hours before ovulation. I'm saying that I ovulated on day 17... 24 hours after the positive OPK I had a few ovulation pains.

My plan is to try to stay really busy the next two weeks. This will be my last week of summer. I'm hoping to spend some time with my niece and nephew and go swimming/shopping with the kids and my sister.

Today is day 19. My cycles are 30 days long. I would be due for the terrible aunt flow on august 22. So I could test 5 days before that... But what I really want is to wait until August 24 on my birthday. How awesome would it be to get a positive test on my birthday? But then I think if it's negative, it would probably ruin my day.

What do you guys think I should do? Test early or on my birthday?

laundry room and closet organization

Our laundry room

The baskets are for my steam mop, garmen bags, sewing and fabric. The jars are oxy clean, clothes pins, and dryer sheets.

My sweet father-in-law put the clothes rod up for me a few weeks ago! Now our clothes can dry without covering the entire kitchen table!

This is a shelf that I added wheels to and a spring loaded rod. For the cover, I just took a sheet and cut it to size and slipped the rod through the hem line. 

This is where I keep our cleaning supplies, rags, and ironing.

Coat closet

The baskets are for scarves, reuseable bags, and shoes.

This is the linen closet. beach towels, guest sheets, master sheets, and blankets. 

UPDATE: I had originally scheduled a doctor's appointment for today. But ended up canceling it because cycle day 1 officially started today!! 8 days late, but I'm so relieved! It's exciting to start this cycle as it's our first official TTC month! I can't wait to see what happens in the next few months!!

my attitude adjustment and kitchen clean up!

Well, I'm now going on 7 days late and still no period. I was really stressing but today I've gained some peace. Tests are all still negative, but I learned that you can still ovulate again before you get your next period. So, if I skipped this period, I could still ovulate again in a few weeks if my period doesn't come before then. I'll just wait and see what happens. I have really been upset this week and I'm glad to have a different outlook. I did schedule a doctor appointment tomorrow. I'm not sure if I'll go or not now. I may end up canceling. If you guys know any other info. about missed periods and ovulation, let me know. I'm sure it will come sometime, but until then, I'm not giving up hope that we  have to wait for my period. Maybe I'll ovulate again when I was supposed to. Cross your fingers!

To keep myself busy this summer, I've been doing some cleaning and organizing around the house. I figured I'd share some pictures. Maybe it will help someone out! I'll do separate posts for each space.

Our kitchen has very little cabinet space, so I've had to get really creative on storage.

hooks for measuring cups

 shelves for extra room

spices and oils

Pantry

All of my baking ingredients. I'm going to label these one day!

Protein powder, oatmeal, cereal, potatoes, onions

snacks

Shelf with sandwich bags, plastic wraps, and trash bags. Pie plate with all liquids keeps things from getting sticky

Pantry door with drink mixes and foils

I got most of my storage from wal-mart and home goods. This makes cooking dinner a little more fun

 : )

Once again, I'm frustrated. Last month, I got a false positive pregnancy test. This month, my period is three days late. That may not seem like a big deal, but for me it is. My cycles have been 30 days forever. I don't know why it's late??? I've taken several tests and all of them are negative.

What is going on? I wasn't stressed this month. I'm off for the summer so I've had less stress than usual. Hopefully AF comes soon. Let's get it over with!

I'm just tired of all this. It's just a gigantic waiting game that always lets me down.

We're almost there!

Hey guys!! I've been meaning to post for the past few days. I'm still counting down the weeks until TTC time. I can't believe it's almost here! Just a little over three weeks now!!! holy smokes!!!

I've been trying to keep myself busy with projects around the house. I was thinking I may post some of the things I've done on the blog. But, I wasn't sure... 

My sister and her 2 kids who live about 5 hours away from us are moving! They will be 20 minutes from our house and we are so excited!! It will be such a blessing to have family that close and see the kids more often!

I'm feeling really excited about the coming weeks. But, I have to say, I also have had a case of cold feet. For a few weeks, I started to feel nervous and scared about this decision. Most of my fear came from knowing that my husband had said all along that he wanted to wait for 5 years to have kids once we were married. When my baby fever hit hard after the first year, we decided to meet in the middle... he agreed to bumping it up 2 years and I agreed to waiting for 2 years. So now that it's finally here, there have been lots of conversations about if he really wants this. Before he would say things along the lines of I promised you this summer, if you asked me in 10 years I would probably want to still wait a while. Meaning he will never really feel ready, but he wants it because that's what I want. 

I started to picture myself with a screaming newborn and no sleep. And then thinking about how he would feel towards my decision to have kids sooner. 

scary. 

But, I talked with a few friends and they all said the same thing. Women emotionally connect to the idea of having kids and there's no pushing those feelings aside. Men on the other hand, don't have those hormonal feelings. A lot of my friends said that their husbands weren't dying for kids either, with a have to have them now feeling. They wanted kids, but maybe just further down the road. someday. My sister said that you can always find a reason to wait a little longer and before you know it, you're old. : )

All of these things gave me some comfort. But what helped the most, is yesterday when we went out to dinner. I brought up what I saw as a major problem that he hadn't even thought twice about. Earlier that day at this parents' house, they asked if we would want to go on a family vacation to Destin next August. My husband was of course so excited and said yes! The first thing I thought was no. 

So at dinner I mentioned to him that we may have a newborn: 3 months at the oldest, probably younger, or I'll be super pregnant. hopefully. His response was, oh yeah. We started talking about this little problem and how it could all work out. My husband said, "so we have to skip a year, but maybe they'll go again the year after." 

For some reason, this made me feel like he really was ready. He understands there will be sacrifices to make, but that it will all be worth it in the end... and he didn't even look disappointed about the possibility of not going. 

Another reason. We had a family wedding the day before that and of course we get the question all. the. freaking. time.  You guys next? When are ya'll having kids? I hate this question. It's awkward. Should I say, "I was ready 2 years ago, but he's not. Go ask him." Of course not. That would be disrespectful. Although I may say something along those lines sometimes. This weekend, when we were asked that question every time my husband would say not too much longer. And his response would come with a smile instead of a nervous twitch. 

These are just a few reasons why my cold feet have warmed up some. We are both excited and nervous together, but we're as ready as we'll ever be. That is all I needed to know.

BEFORE BABY LADY

a sad day...

After lunch today, I ran out to a few stores. I was looking for containers to reorganize our pantry. I started to feel a little queasy and my stomach felt crampy. So, I ran home to lay down and felt better after a while. I thought it was strange to feel so nauseous one second and better 10 minutes later. So, I ran to Walgreens to buy a pregnancy test. I took the test and noticed 2 faint lines. I blinked a few times and my heart started racing. There were definitely two lines. I. was. positive.

I tried not to freak out and decided to get a better pregnancy test. I need to know for sure. So, I ran to CVS this time (so the walgreens lady wouldn't think I was nuts) and bought another box. I took the test as fast as I could and it was negative.

Now, I'm just feeling really down. I knew I probably wasn't pregnant. We aren't trying quite yet, but we aren't really not trying either. I knew I shouldn't have taken that stupid test. But I did. And now I'm really upset.

I just can't forget that feeling I had when I saw 2 lines. It's indescribable. I know my time will come, but it's really hard waiting. I'm not sure if I should tell my husband about what happened today or not. He might think I'm crazy. So, I figured I'd tell you guys instead.

Before Baby Lady